LCP in 3

I spent three hours inside lancaster Co. prison today. I talked with two guys, both heading upstate for armed robbery, auto theft, and who knows what else. Drug use started early, started at home with mom or dad or both. Both said that they have thought long and hard about why they did what they did when they did it.Both recongnize that their actions were irrational and unnecessary. one of them told me that he met his girlfriend in a porn shop, where he was dealing drugs. I also learned that he used to enjoy landscaping and that he loves kids--though he has no children. he was raising his girlfriends three kids when he was arrested. he has done time in four prisons and LCP is the worst.
we talked about God and Jesus. One of the guys s struggling with biblical "inconsistencies". he is learning that the bible is not one uniform text, but many texts over many centuries written ina context very different from ours. And yet, somehow the bible speaks to us,too. even with its inconsistencies.
The other guy has grown skepticalby seeing jailhouse religion. I mentioned that religion and God are not the same thing. Religion is what we do to seek God or bargain with God or assuage our guilt. But it is possible for God to actually transform people from the inside out.
I will see both of these guys again, i suspect. Even though the guards forgot about me and I was left inside for anhour past the designated time of visit.
I began to uncover some sense of brokenness, loneliness, maybe even some yearning for a better story than the one they've been told, or the one they're telling about the world and themselves in it. I'm not sure what to make of these visits yet. Why do I go? What good will come? is God using me or is the devil testing me in some way? I just keep hearing Jesus say, "I was in prison and you visited me." does that include serious felons? Is there a line? can grace become too foolish or dangerous? I actually thought, whatif this comes back to hurt me or my family in some way? might some paroled guy try to take advantage of me on the outside? interesting how fear can creep in. We'll see how it goes next week. Three hours in prison visitaton is longer than I spent in prison visitation in my first 7years of ministry. Why am I suddenly being sent there? for whom? For what? is God really sending me or am I being works righteous? It does seem that as I make more connections with people,bringing the message of the kingdom to them in some smalll way, the more I feel the weight of my own sin. Sometimes I feel like I'm more stuck than others, like a hypocrite for living this way. Everyday is a day for which I need forgiveness and healing from GOD. I pray that as I am forgiven and healed, somight I heal and forgive...

trees

i have a tree in my yard. it grew naturally under one of my pine trees. its a maple tree. i let it grow to about 3 feet high. it was flourishing. i decided to transplant it into my yard and see if i might get it to grow. i dug out the roots, and buried it in a hole in our side yard. i killed it. dead. i think. i may let it go for a few weeks and see if something grows. the leaves turned brown. maybe some root will take.
i was able to take something God made by nature of reproductive design and kill it so quickly. why is that? i feel like going out and buying a tree to plant there in its place. i want to partner with God i nthe healing and restoration of creation, but i killed a potential carbon eating tree that God was growing.
do you ever feel like you're a bigger part of the problem than you mean to be? Like when my three-year-old cries after he hit his brother and I say, "Jonah!" He says, with tears flowing, "I'm sorry daddy,I didn't mean it." I didn't mean to contribute to the decay, the pain, the groaning of creation. I meant to plant, water, and rejoice at the growth.

isoalted populations

the kingdom of God is like a man who is released from prison. Upon release he is offered a postion with a local company that distributes food to elderly people who live alone. he is offered a room in a large home at an affordable rental rate. In exchange, he is expected to clean up after meals and tend to the upkeep of the yard. he is given a low interest loan from a church to attend a local community college at night. ON Saturdays he helps the church distribute food at their food pantry. after completing his education, he receives a promotion, and buys a home through habitat for humanity. his wife and three children join him there, after spending four years in separate countries. they adopt a fourth child.

I wonder if this scenerio happens? isn't more likely that people released from prison struggle to gain respect and opportuities for personal advancement?
we isolate people. we do. i've been made more aware of this truth as I have been sent to them, following Jesus there. I started visiting people in prison. now I can't stop. I am interested in their stories. I hear the story of God and of Jesus in their stories. I hear the story of Joseph and John the baptist and Jesus and Paul in their stories. I hear the story of the crucified bandits; "Jesus remember me when you come into your kingdom." These are forgotten people. we isolate them to preserve safety, to maintain order, to protect the self-interests of the average middle-class white american. in so doing, we create a system that oppresses people, keeping them locked up even after they are released. life is harder outside if you've been inside. Its not surprising to hear the alarming rate of return for offenders.
it is hard for people who live above the system of oppression to see it. but I have seen people stuck in prison for months, without any personal progress, rehabilitation, reconciliation, or renewal offered to them. one might say, they had their chance before they broke the law. true. maybe. what if they didn't? Now I'm not just a bleeding heart. what if people are to be held accountable and responsible for their actions and offered mercy, forgiveness, and efforts to reconnect them with the broader gifts of society? I believe there is a third way of dealing with people on the margins. One way is to make ghetto populations. another way is to defend them. a third way is to go and visit them, befriend them, invite them to the way of forgiveness. who else is isolated? The elderly. the sick. the dying. the disabled. the poor. think about housing for people in poverty and how it islolates them from a mixed population. I meet people living in the worst conditions, trailers unfit for animals; cramped, old, apartments in disrepair. and he retirement nursing care facility is a perfect population isolater. out of sight, out of mind. the creatino of certain institutions of isolation has led us to create a gentrified society of have's and have-nots. these institutions need to be reformed from top to bottom. jesus says, "when i was in prison ou visited me,sick and you took care of me, hungry and you fed me." I believe he was the master of reconciliation by reconnecting marginalized people with the center of community life. he deconstructed the solid lines of exclusion and constructed fluid lines of inclusion. tomorrow I will go back to the prison. I will join he isolated population there, if only for a couple of hours. but when i do, I meet Jesus.